Friday, February 25, 2011

{Greetings and Salutations}

The truth: I have been depressed lately. It is much easier to deal with now than when I was younger and could not articulate my feelings very well. I am wise enough now that when I feel it coming I tell people to avoid falling all the way into the whole of despair than is constantly lurking around the corner for me. Winter is by FAR the worst time for me. After the holidays, cause I can put my mind to work for those. Something to be excited about. But after Christmas I usually start to slide. I like to consider myself a "high functioning" mental case. Most on the outside I am sure see a busy Mom, a happy camper of sorts. But over the years I have mastered the art of the "happy face".

I was hit with some major-ish family "blek" kind of news in January. I spun out of control a bit. I keep all my "baggage" all tidy and kept away and every now and again I get tipped Topsy turvy and it all spills out. It takes days or sometimes weeks for me to gather all of it together again and regain my footing. I am thankful for family and friends and Jason who helped me greatly this time. I'm feeling much better now. Just longing for Spring and tan lines! ;)

So I have taken pictures and need to blog them. My kids are my anti-depressants. Staying in bed for days like I did as a teenager just does not work when you are the Mommy. So here are my all their glory!

Over the past month or so we have~

Taped our eyebrows up and laughed!

Had a "romantic" family dinner on Valentines Day!

Got some fun Valentines!

Went to the wards family dance! Very fun!

Had some McDonnies~

Played at indoor park.

Goofed with Mom!


Made friendship bracelets~

Tried dipping for the 1st time!



by numbers!!!!!

Went to the library!

And crashed!
So as you can see that although I struggle with depression, the Lord has placed in my some times dark heart, RAYS of magnificent light~

6 SAY WHAT??????????????????:

Kendra said...

I LOVE YOU! Well, I must say that you pull it off well in public, but if you ever just need to get out, and not really out you can come and hang out with me...I will most likely be wearing pjs or some kind of stretch pants...:) I can teach you how to Picassa and you can teach me how to be as creative as you!

Leah said...

I love you Alli! You know what is so inspiring to me? The fact that in your dark moments, you try to stay positive. You are such a great Mommy. I loved seeing you in action with your kids this weekend. So good to see you!

I love the pic of the taped eyebrows, never a dull moment! I also loved your romantic family Valentines dinner. I bet our family has you beat this year... we had a romantic family Vday dinner with the missionaries over! Boo ya, it really set the mood! Lol

Angie said...


Claire said...

I love you Alli Blue.

Dahl Family said...

LOVE YOU ALLISON!! I find myself feeling rather blah in January and February myself. I would say let's go walking but it is way too cold :) Let's get Burke and Norah together...

You are truly amazing and inspiring and such a great mom. Love seeing all of the fun things you guys do. LOVE YOU!!

Synergy Girl said...

Oh are so awesome!! I love that you are able to admit your weakness and grow from it...that makes you stronger than most of us!!! I don't know if you are interested, but snowboarding saved me after baby number four, and every year since. I got post pardom with him, and Brian tried to cheer me up by taking me to Bogus...well, it was perfect...when you're depressed, you don't care if you get hurt, and it gives you something to work at, not to mention FRESH AIR!!! It just really helps during the winter, and it is the BEST stress relief, and clears your head. I go up during the week with Diana Featherstone, and we just have a girls night boarding each week...we'd LOVE it if you came...if ya wanna...;)

Music to my Soul~

Get a playlist! Standalone player Get Ringtones

Graden's wrestling practice