We are officially moved into the "new" house. I love it. We are only paying $50 more a month for another bedroom (office for now), another living room, another garage, and a better school! It has been so stressful though. Between the move, school starting, Jason's job, we have really been pushed. I finally had a melt down yesterday morning.
As a wife and mom I feel as though it is my position to "keep it all together". Well guess what, when one person tries to "keep it all together"......it all falls apart. I have tried making the move easy, FLUNKED. I tried making the girls first few days of school a great transition, FAILED. I tried to get the new house together quickly, BOMBED.
But guess what? I did the best damn job I could. (Pardon the language my friends!) That is just how I feel. I cried and sobbed in the bathroom the other morning and Jason just quietly gave me a hug. That is really all I needed. He knows I am trying the hardest I can. So is he. We are just being pushed and pushed. It's a really long story, maybe someday I will feel like blogging it, but for now it is better for our hand of cards to kept quiet.
I am just thankful for family. Phone calls and texts from friends. My mom(s)! When you feel like you are in a bottomless pit, it is hard to remember the He is with you. The Lord does not ask us to do it all. He just asks that we do what we can. He will help with the rest. Whether it be a miracle, a blessing, a friend, a helping hand, a smile. He will make up the rest.
In all the crap we have seen in the last month or so we have seen double the blessings. Health, safety, love. We are thankful for all your thoughts and prayers! Really!